Thanksgiving

I have tried to prepare for Thanksgiving by giving thanks to God for Thinwithin, for the forum, for the support, and for all the other many blessings I have. I have studied the Word, prayed the Word, now I must walk in and believe the Word. I made it through trick or treating without eating candy, the first time in my adult life.
I am trusting God for the grace to do His will and not mine.

walking by faith and not by sight

I have learned so much this week. I see God doing a new thing in me; the TW book is great, but the forum has been a greater blessing. I got to chat with liliblossom and peaches.
It was an uplifting time, and I was very honest about some private issues.
Now to be accountable for my eating.
I have truly cut down portions, but I am eating 3 times a day. I am starved when I wake up in the morning. However, at lunch time today I wasn't as hungry, and I had asked the cook to give me smaller portions. I did great.
I have bypassed popcorn at the movies,survived a church dinner, and amazingly felt full with a small amount.
I overate one time: fruit dip. I was so sick I vomited. Good lesson.
I believe I am gonna make it this time, as long as I let go and let God, and NEVER forget this is not about being skinny, but it is about my walk with theLord.
And I feel peace about that.

testing

I knew testing time was coming, and it did yesterday. I ate a big supper. Yep, too big, but actually a normal size for the way I used to eat.
BUT, AND I AM SO HAPPY TO SHOUT: I went to my niece's house, and they had delicious donuts fresh. They offered me some, and I turned it down. Then my grandson brought me cornbread, and I sooo love cornbread, but just to please him (he is six years old) I took one bite. So though I ate too much at suppertime, I was able to stop.
I see progress.
Now I am praying for the strength to put the scales away for a month.

fixing my eyes on Jesus

I got my thinwithin book today. I was so excited that I pulled over to the side of the road and read a few pages, prayed as I drove, and repeated that twice. I had begged God for help, and I believe He heard my prayers.
I love Beth Moore Bible studies. I notice Heidi quotes Beth too. When I did Believing God, I would say : I believe God is who He says He is, He can do what He says He can do, His Word is alive and active in me, I can do what Hesays I can do, I AM BELIEVING GOD!!!
He says I can have self control and if I keep my eyes fixed on Jesus, I can.
I made it through the church dinner, and ate less than I ever had; I ate no candy on Halloween, a miracle! And I went to the movies and was gonna eat some popcorn, but got a husk on the first bite and only drank a diet coke. That is the power of God; not me.

beginning of my journey

I am starting thinwithin. I had orginally started weighdown, but i have felt the urge to switch to this. Heidi's posts have inspired me, and I am waiting on my book. I lost 8 pounds with 2 weeks on weighdown, and I am praying for strength to wait for hunger.
Tomorrow is my church dinner so I want to be ready to face it. My daughter and I are in this together so we have planned to fill our plate with small portions of our favorite foods (meat loaf, potato salad, slaw, and a small dessert. I am going to eat the dessert first because while at hunger it will taste better. I plan to sit with Allison and talk so we both will have time to get full. I know I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.