Tuesday, March 24, 2009

New Bible study

I am doing a Bible study now Freedom from Emotional Eating by Barb Reveling.
Starting TW taught me that I had a lot of anger still over losing my daughter, and over dealing with the obstacles that my grandson faces doing without his mom.

I worked through the Freedom book, truth journaling about my anger. It helped tremendously; I feel so much happier, and I think I can better deal with the food issue.
TW has good concepts on waiting for hunger, but I do like Barb's truth journaling. I set my boundaries (taught by TW), and then I am truth journaling when I do not eat right, or act right.
Emotional eating is so sneaky; I think I had it under control for awhile, but it is rearing its ugly head once again so I know I still have "stuff" to deal with and want to please the Lord.

One of the truths that a person could apply to any situation is the truth journaling. Barb says that we don't need self-control to set us free; we need to know the truth and the truth will set us free. I study the Word plenty, but I am not always able to see the truth about my behavior. As I pray and write, the Lord reveals the truth to me throught the pen. This amazes me.

This same concept happened to me when I was going through the grieving process. We would be at church discussing our problems, and the Lord would reveal to me as we were talking what to do about the situation. We need each other,and the support group helped me so much to deal with the grieving process.

4 years have passed, and I found that I still was angry over issues with my grandson. One of the truths I faced was the enemy of my soul magnified some problems. I learned to ask for discernment. The other problems were real, and I had to ask good godly friends to pray for Caleb as he is getting older (he was almost 3 at the time of the loss of his mother), he is grieving in a sense over the loss. It is in small doses thank the good Lord, but God is showing me not to overlook his pain and be in denial. So I am always discussing his progress with my other daughter, his stepmother (who is a prayer warrior, but she is very young and needs prayer in dealing with a seven-year-old, she is 22 herself), and my husband. We are interceding for Caleb, and I must say he has a very happy life. However, there are times when he asks me questions that pierce my heart through and through. For instance, he asked me if the dress she was buried in was dirty by now. Can you imagine the pain that caused me, and then I had to wonder what was his little mind thinking.

I want to say that God is a healer and I am happy. God has blessed me to stay close to Him, and as long as I do I have joy. Isn't that the way it should be for most Christians?

1 comment:

Christina said...

Wow, thanks for sharing from your heart. Reading of your grief and how you are handling life is touching and moving.

By the way, after reading your post (and some of Heidi's) I decided I've gotta get myself a copy of this Emotional Eating book...so I did! I'm really excited about digging into it.

I have been praying for you.